Pourquoi je suis le pensive tous les jours?

Pourquoi je suis le pensive tous les jours? Je suis triste. Beaucoup.

Yes, recently, I'm being feeling more and more down. Increasingly, the footsteps get heavier, the stairs harder to ascend. Life is so difficult. The climb is so hard, the reward so far, and when we near it, we fall.

You know, I've almost stopped listening to metallica, queenscythe, or iron maiden. I loved them so much. Their music always riled me to action. They were stimulants to my depressed mind. They were opium to my trodden soul. But dope only works for so long. Tolerence builds up till the point it evokes no emotions. Instead, and unbelievably, I'm turning more and more to teen angst-sy songs. Why put up that facade of toughness and strength by listening to metal? I have sunk so deep I can't crawl out any longer. I would rather now pander to my teenage emotional side than face the void I see.