I need to live life

Alas,

I need to live life
Like some people never will
So find me kindness
Find me beauty
Find me truth
When temptation brings me to my knees
And I lay here drained on stength
Show me kindness
Show me beauty
Show me truth

so poignant.
From, Learning to Live, one of my favorite songs, which I have not listen to for sometime.

And from another long time favourite, Endless Sacrifice

Try to stay alive
Until I hear your voice
I'm gonna lose my mind
Someone tell me why
I chose this life
This superficial lie
Constant compromise
Endless sacrifice
.
.
.
You're so far away
And so alone
You long for love's embrace
To keep you sane
To make you whole

Damn, I keep having dreams of HIM hitting HER, ME hitting back at HIM, HIM half-dead, HER afraid, HER lonely, and I wake up.

I think I'm starting to get lost again. Oh my oh my...this sacrifice of my sanity must end. I really need to start living my own life.